U’ve painted urself onto my walls,
I cry most nights when ur not here
and i fall apart, again and again,
where your shadow used to finger.
But I won’t tell u
I hate myself for loving u like this
for loving you enough to fill the spaces you’ll never touch.
U only love me as habit
But I adore u with the madness of an open wound
obsession carving its name in every breath.
i wear your indifference like a second skin.
U should break up with me
you should take this ache and cut it loose,
break the tether.
tear me from this unraveling,  
i love you too much, and it burns-
the way you never reach back with the same.
I watch u drive past my apt on ur way home and
pray to a god that doesn’t exist
or maybe just the silence
that u’ll surprise me and stop by
But u never do
I should leave
I don’t
I can’t
I won’t
I’m scared to go
the thought of leaving swallows me whole.
so i stay.
i stay because i don’t know how to move.
because i’m too afraid of what I broke to fill you.