Democracy, freedom, independence and joy have all done a full circle and stopped tonight Now to pack that well worn bag one last time and let go of all the hopes and dreams of a little house with a blue door with icicles hanging off the roof surrounded by daffodils as the snow melts predicting long summer evenings in the sun sipping ice cold beer with those who are dear. All the friends made memeories gained will be left behind at the start of this trip with a one way ticket to which used to be home. Social norm is a miserable concept and in this fickle thing called life the only thing that doesn't change is apparently my race. Because God decided to play a cruel trick and made me brown outside and inside a Brit. Just to thicken the plot having been raised with morals here I am declining generously convenient marriage proposals deluded by romance and sacred notions of matrimony just to get a visa was never going to cut it. And dear Craig from last night, you tasted and smelt of honesty and liberation and your embrace, like a lie in on a lazy Sunday morning was warm, cosy and comforting your eyes mirroring a painful understanding of heartache and no hope of tomorrow yet yearning to stay in each others arms as we did on that tiny dark dance floor even long after the music had ended. I would have given you my number if time hadn't failed me if fate hadn't cheated me. I died a little more inside watching you leave even though we had just met and it was one night with alcohol running through my veins as I drank to forget I remember that kiss good bye. You lingered and I can't stop thinking what if what if what if what if I had time could we have been something more guess we will never know instead I've got to go leaving everything behind except for my well worn suit case full of crushed dreams and a broken heart dampen and heavy with tears and fears time to leave where I belong and return to where I was mistakenly born. Time to face the beginning of the end...
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