I lay in my bed in a dark lonely room
With a combination of last nights makeup and pure gloom
Hair-sprayed tangled hair and coffee breath
Replaying the day of your abrupt death
My loneliness dwells
And although my face tells
A story that no one can believe
Of a mother-daughter bond
That went terribly wrong
The day God called you to leave.

I lay in my bed in a dark lonely room
In Potomac,MD
A long way from home
Where I used to roam
Making memories with my angelic mommy.
I wish I could tell you all about how my life has changed-
Since you went away
I just couldn't stay
In a house that's still in your name.

I lay in my bed in a dark lonely room
Of a house filled with people who don't know
The struggle I've gone through
To get where I am and to get closer to you.

These are my memoirs of a dazed and confused
Eternal optimist who feels neglected and abused
In hopes of one day leaving this dark lonely room.