passively observing
not really paying attention
someone scores, i'm not even sure who

everybody screams

i hit the floor
tears in my eyes
it's so ******* loud

suddenly all my clothes are too tight
everything is wrong
my head is pounding
hands over ears, kneeling on the floor

he grabs my hand

squeeze
breathe in
squeeze
breathe out

"are you okay? i know how you feel"

i need to say i'm not
i don't know what's wrong with me
just a little screaming
that shouldn't make me cry

instead
i smile
"i'm okay, thank you!"