I still care about you
I really do
But i feel like I’m fighting
A winless battle

Im trying to be supportive
To respect your wishes and your needs
And you seem to be doing better
Far away from me

I love you
But i can’t be there through another spiral
I tried to help you through the last one
Only for you to shoot the gun

We both have our scars
Both shot bullets in the others way
Im managing just fine with mine
While your still healing from the bruises

Im waiting for your call
Waiting on you to let your guard down
Open up your walls
Just know I’m waiting by the phone
Ready to help you through it all

Trust is a fragile thing
I seem to have lost yours
Yet strangely enough
You also lost mine

Theres this giant red flag
That i cant seem to ignore
Im afraid that letting you back in
Will do more harm than good

Like always, ill ignore my gut
Let you back in
Rebuild that trust
Hope my decision doesn’t end in a bomb

I pray this doesn’t blow up in my face
Im ignoring all the warning signs
And people’s stay away
Please be the first to prove my gut wrong
Im not strong enough to handle
Another cut on my arm

You might hate me
If i ever said this to your face
I believe im okay with that
For it appears my words
Tend to stick in your brain

While you sleep at night
I pray your doing better
Praying that your scars are healing
Praying you keep any toxic people at bay

Farewell for now i must say
Hope to see you soon
When your in a better place
Please know
That my door is always open
If you ever need an escape