it shakes me to my core. suicide, its always in my life, in my mind." a permanent solution to a temporary problem" I don't have a problem. I don't know why I want to **** myself, I just do. my life is an endless reminder of failure. why not end the reminder, just like an alarm you use too wake up. why keep on listening to it  when you can just silence it and get extra sleep. my life is a cycle. my life is worthless. my life is meaningless. your life is meaningless. we are all meaningless. what does it matter if I **** myself? people will be sad for a week? my mom will be sad? my dad? I'm selfish? I don't care I'll be dead... they will get over it and live their lives just like they did 14 years ago.