abandonment is when everything you do is wrong and nothing you do is considered important when you've blatantly made a mistake but they smile at you and say that "it's all right" because they can't be bothered to tell you what it takes to become an even better person
it is the occasional urge for your heartbeat to slow down. to the point where it stops, and is too late to start up again the persistant desire to step off rooftops; to feel your body tumbling, hurtling downwards knowing that the ground will open up to keep you safe
when you feel abandoned, you feel unwanted as if everyone has decided to give up on you but still you keep your palms open, like a child waiting to catch snowflakes in summer thinking that perhaps, your conclusion was wrong hoping that the silhouette you watched walk away will turn around and return to you with outstretched arms