I learned that you are poly on Friday
I learned that I will never be enough
I know that it is not your fault, I could never blame you.
It just hurts that I am not enough.
I now understand why you didn't want to make me "yours"
I get why you hated serious conversations.
I now know why you always seemed so busy.
I told you it is fine, but I can't help think about what could have been.
I know that we weren't even official, but I cried when you told me.
I feel horrible for lying, for saying that it was no problem at all.
I don't want you to feel guilty, for something that you can't even control.
I don't want you to think you hurt me, not at all.
Cause I am in love with you, but it hurts. just a little.
If you ask though, I am okay.
I haven't imagined a future we couldn't have.
I haven't cried myself asleep to the thought that you could leave.
I am not enough. And I guess... That is okay.