As I laying dreaming one night,
I lay on my porch staring at the sky,
my vision blurred with the onset of sleep,
a smile on my face.
I floated off into the distance,
mind sent downstream,
collective experience open before me,
I find that I have no resistance.
I am not where I was,
I lay in a field of flowers,
stretched beyond sight,
it is here that I want to die.
Hands and knees,
above me I see a girl,
she's wearing a summer dress,
her outline slightly different from the rest.
The sun beats down,
the flowers reach up,
drips of sunshine hit the grass,
the girl's dress melds with the sky.
I don't know who or what she is,
I don't know where she's come from,
why she's here,
but she's all I want.
I reach up towards her hand,
the flowers heed my call,
hand in hand,
I can't evade her draw.
Our hands touch,
the clichΓ© is broken,
her hand is filled not with first loves,
but the warmth of nostalgia flooding back again.
On her palm rests,
fond times out on the lake,
overcoming family deaths,
of what family we have left,
and in the end that's all we've got.
I take her hand in mine,
and in return I give it all back,
songs and stories,
defeats and glories.
We lay back against the sky,
dreams and tears both go by,
wishing for the gift of flight,
basking in a unfamiliar sun's light.
In a flash it's all gone,
I think that perhaps I was wrong,
I'm always singing the same tune,
saying that I love you,
just me and the moon.
A.P. Beckstead (2013)