i’m probably self-sabotaging [again]
after all it’s not like i’m capable of trust anymore.
i’m practically always looking for something,
anything, to prove me right.

what if i am actually right?
what then?

do i just keep letting myself
                                                   fall
                                                   straight
                                                   down?

even if the crash will b r ea k my bones?
i already know it’s what i’d do.

crack. splinter. shatter.
grind me to dust.



does it really even matter?