It is so hard for me

Feeling lonely, with people around
Feeling Down, over no visible reason
Its hard for me to breath in
My Lungs so tight
Hands shivering
**** too Dark around on sunny day

Loneliness! too scary
With all these around I lost myself

I am

Not confident any more!
Lost my resistance, can't speak up
Can't open my Eye, as if its is tied

Felt so restless!
I can't breath, it is so hard
I hate this side me.. this is not me