I used to love the scars. I used to love them, and they would comfort me when I was sad. Now they are only a reason to stop, a preventative measure, something to convince myself to find another way to feel better, but it's not easy. I used to love the way they looked on my skin, now I cannot stand them being there. They are unwelcome. I wish they would leave my skin forever, and I swear I'd never make another. I swear, I would never press that blade to my innocent skin again. I swear, I swear, I swear, I would find another way to make the sadness leave.