tried to feel, but i laughed it off
tried to care, but it feels so wrong
tried to deny, but it’s all over this place
again.
something’s gone, something’s switched
not in a good way
it’s a terrible thing
and i make mistakes that i didn’t used to
before.
my room is messy, so’s my mind
so’s everything where i tried to take my time
all my friends and all my people
all the things i used to do
i’m shutting down, it doesn’t feel good
everything hurts
this poem doesn’t work
and it feels like an attention-seeking cry.
the things i dread, the things i dream
it’s all melting together, a strange feeling.
all my haters are doing better than me
in life
why am i here
if i don’t ever bother to try?