So many things left unsaid
My heart aches and so does my head
How can someone inflict so much pain
Unintentionally, accidental, plain

I question if I’m a bad person
I don’t want to be that kind of version
That worsens, everytime you say I’m sorry
I worry, if I truly believe those words

But all of it is just absurd, those 2 words
Mean nothing
Actions are consistently repeated
No “I’m sorry” was ever needed

I’m seated, in my thoughts and feelings
Was it ever completed?
Your intentions, your goal?
Well you win, I feel defeated

Explaining never does me good
That is why I hate “are you algood”
I never know the comfortability I’m supposed to feel
But I know I have to reel

In my feelings and emotions
It’s all to surreal
I can’t deal, with this pain anymore
Nothing comes easy like it used to

This roller coaster of emotions
Sometimes makes me feel frozen
I just wanted to be loved
Not shoved, is it that hard?