Grown ups always ask children what they want to be when they grow up. When they would ask me I would reply with the first idea that came to my head. One day it was a vet and the next a teacher. And then when I reached the fourth grade it hit me. A writer.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
A writer.

When I got a little older I read a quote by John Lennon and everything changed. Suddenly, when asked what I wanted to be, I wanted to be happy. Just happy. It's that easy.

Now I have realized that I'm only good at being nostalgic. Granted, nostalgia is a form of happiness because you were once happy and that's what creates that infamous cloud of sadness. But it's a longing sadness.  And maybe I'm only good at longing; desiring the distant.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
*I believe I am already grown, and I am nostalgic.