i fall for you,
but i’m tangled in confusion.
you make me happy,
yet i can’t shake this fear,
this constant tug-of-war in my heart.

when we’re together,
i’m overwhelmed by vulnerability,
the raw, exposed feeling
that makes me want to run,
to escape before it all becomes too real.

i see the end of our road
in the moments we share,
and it scares me.
so much so that i think of leaving,
even while i’m with you.

i don’t want to hurt you,
even though i struggle with my own feelings.
i’m torn between the joy of your presence
and the fear of what lies ahead.
the balance between loving you and wanting freedom.

i miss you when we’re apart,
yet when we’re together,
i feel like i’m inching closer to goodbye.
i’m caught in this paradox,
happy yet sad, loving yet wanting to leave.

i’m the heartless girl,
they say,
but here i am,
caught between emotions,
trying to figure out how to protect us both
while wrestling with my own heart.