Medicate it Away

I step on another pill, as I try to get out of bed.

So dizzy, I hardly feel it crushing.

Walking on shells.

Can't remember how many pills I took yesterday.

Just like thy father before me.

One was supposed to get me to sleep,
But my nightmares kept me wake.

One was supposed to get me to wake up,
But no reason to get me out of bed.

One was supposed to settle my ADHD,
But no  direction to focus on.  

One was supposed to stabilize my mood,
But no way to feel.

One was supposed to take the pain away,
And trust me I've taken them in handfuls,  
But I'm still hurting.

But I'm still hurting.

Woke this morning and forgot where I was.

Can't remember how many pills took yesterday.

Too depended, I just lose track.

Too desperate, I just lose care.

Tell my father, I understand now.  

But I can't medicate it away.