Cold. Everything is covered in a piercing cold that makes me bundle up with the hope of giving up and a couple warm breaths on my hands. But sometimes, there is a spot of heat in the air that fully envelopes me while I sit in the silence wondering how this could be. But I want, no no, I need to get out, locked inside an Arctic display of my head that they splay on a mount that no one will see. And all I need is a crack in control for me to weasel right into and break so I can breathe fresh air and see what a laugh looks like again.
Silence. The room is filled with complete silence except for the scratching and screeching of the record on repeat that is completely made up of my thoughts. On occasion, you can hear the drip-drip-dripping of my tears as they hit the floor or my hands pounding on titanium walls but praying for a door, because I want, no, I need to get out, trapped inside this heartless cage where all I am is filled with rage and hate and resentment. And all I need is a crack in the wall for me to throw my back into and break so I can see the light and hear what a smile sounds like again.