when the calm disrupts my atmosphere
blistering the thoughts over
i've been here before
i suppose that i survived
through darker skies.
transfixed in this fury
eyes always astray
was there a hand to grab?
the distance is too strong
i exhale the miles
along with every irregular heartbeat
my broken body can produce.
it's enough to say
that i've taken enough.
and i keep taking more
watching these words pour around me
emptying the glass bottles
all over my ***** floor.
does it even really matter?
the water continues to rise
and there is no tipping point
and it's always mostly empty
pessimistic persuasion
i can and i will
bring everything you stand for
down to my level
drowning in these puddles
i have permitted to accumulate
for far too long.
i never look in the mirror these days
for, i am afraid
of those gray eyes that stare back
i don;t recognize, don't understand
don't dare to disagree
i know it must be a joke
yet this room is void of any laughter
any light, any voices
i wonder but never ask
is there anything more to this
pointless existence?
there are never any answers
only opinions
i couldn't care less to absorb
i am a grain of sand
stuck between the cracks in the sidewalk
stuck in this place
with these thoughts
and these feelings
and i swear there is no way out of here.