Pain affects immediately, sticks around indefinitely The headcount is up to sixty over infinity And right around the corner is another three Meaning it's always in the vicinity And every type lands just a smidge differently This feels like what I might imagine to be purgatory Woe is me My future will be winless if I'm too stay in the business of learning from my history The bell to start the fight indicates the end, just prematurely Loosing in a victory, contradictory absurdity mentioned literally, All ***** nilly As I'm sure you can imagine, maybe even probably agree Somethin' like that is bound to change the complexion of a personality I know personally I'd hoped good days would roll in gradually, at least eventually Instead they taunt relentlessly It's with a heavy, often broken, heart I go in and defend half heartedly Enjoying the savagery, a familiarity that relaxes me But positions me next to the poisons amidst the pageantry In the direct line of sight of my worst enemy Me looking back at me directly "You're talking to yourself again Jeremy..." ...shiit, sorry