I’m soaked in gas And the voices are waiting For the flawless time To burn me alive They crave to set themselves loose And I’m the only obstacle they have
I have at no time, met anyone Who despises me as I do And the voices I have inside me I fought and fought a lot against them But they don't lose But I lost every time I tried To escape The alcohol was their fuel To even fight more intense It didn’t help me except for a little bit every time I just had to drown myself in an alternative thing To numb my pain A thing that ruined me slowly I might not loathed drinking I wanted to drink more Unconscious of the consequences Till that night's darkness descended And I went far away from my limits I needed to end everything I needed to end me So I gathered all the pills Drank all the liquor I can I didn’t crave a single positive voice To stop me The horrible voices will constantly possess me I just wanted them to stop I wanted to set myself loose at that time Not them, no But I didn’t take a single pill As I was saved
I was left in my own room With smell of liquor That might make anyone who comes Near, puke I was left for my emotions to eat me For the voices to burn me While laying in my bed, Taking it all Craving the thought That I might have stopped them
That fight changed a lot in me But didn’t stop them from giving me All the despising they give me I have no idea How can someone despise himself like that I ruined a lot of things I did Only because of this despise The shame might not do a thing at all now But I will bleed out on papers Till I can win I shall not give them a pass To win It’s me or me
Everyone have their good or bad voices in their heads, the voices that give them advises or the voices that urge them to do something impulsive, these voices here represents only the negative ones, the ones that don't get out of our heads no matter how hard we try to get them out, or how much we use different ways of escaping.