I fight with god and whoever
Keeps spitting truths at me like peanut shells
Fuck the doctors
And fuck the first time my dad decided to drink
And especially fuck the last time I decided to drink.
He did this to himself and I love him
And I’ll pay for his mistakes
But my pockets are empty
I eat shit sandwiches with stoicism
I praise the autocracy of the medical field
That told me dad is dying
And I should too.
Miracles don’t happen to people like me
And families like ours
In towns like this.
I’m dying with you
Stage 4
I’m dying with you.
I’ve got nothing to lose
Until I found I had more.
Fuck your age and fuck my youth
Fuck Medicaid
And fuck the truth.