Plunge into icy depths I remember waking to ****** knees on the sidewalk outside your house hungover and so ******* desperate. I remember the cold in your eyes and my bones and the words, "Go home." I remember the walk back stiff and aching. You spent years bloodletting only to move on to another chump when the veins ran dry in me. I crashed into puddles filled with frigid Feburary rain water and felt the frozen blood move in disused chambers of a heart I was certain you'd ripped out and mounted to point and laugh with him and your friends, who never liked me at all, anyway. Nothing hurts so bad as the first time your heart shatters in your chest. *******, the skill with which the damage was done, like a surgeon or clockmaker set to careful work at the task and equaled only by the precision with which it was built up again from the ruin by nimble fingers and careful consideration, sweet words and earnest patience. And it was months before I felt the "*******" inside me leaking out and months more before I felt nothing at all. One day she said something and I smiled because it was funny and you didn't cross my mind at all and I didn't know it had died then but that, that moment with her, was the end of you living inside my heart. And we didn't last either and I don't know what became of you or her but love isn't made to stretch and rebound it lives inside all the others and it waits with quiet patience for you to search it out. Love is out there, again and again, just waiting to be found.