I'm lost in thoughts not sure how to go about everyday life like a happy normal person. I have so many people I know but when I get down and actually want to talk to someone there's never anyone really around for me. Most of the time I'm trying to stay alive, inside and out! There are things I do to escape from stress it also happens to be my worse enemy all this time I waste I know god will pull me out. I find myself alone most of the time every time I think that I have found the right guy it turns around and bites me in the ***..  I have not ever slept with a guy months after dating I dive head first in every relationship. I know I am not easy to get along with but my heart is loving I am that friend who will be with you till our time ends. I wasn't ment to be here alone. I will not ever stay around long if someone is trying to steal my shine! I ask myself,  is my.
To much for the average person to handle. I want to close of my emotions, the loving part inside, but that's not me until I am seen for who I really am, I will stay alone.

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