i asked my sister what to do about you
she didn't know either
not that you're some enigma that i can't figure out
you're not supposed to know that

i desperately want to let you know
but i can't find the right words
and i don't know if i want to
because then it's all real and that's too scary

sorry i probably seem like some mess
that you can't seem to figure out
dont worry though
we're both in that boat

but i will say this one thing
because it's there and i can't deny it
even though i do try really hard to do just that
**soon