Last night I dreamt of you.
All the same years had passed still
You moved behind me as my breathe caught
and I prepared myself to remain unseen (Just like I used to)
But light as ash your fingers fell upon my right hip, and then my left-
like a secret
Signaling to me in silence
(Just like you used to)
That I was still what you wanted
A current buzzed hot across my back and around my thighs, same as before
I remember now, even with my eyes open.
My limbs don’t need to ask where else this feeling is familiar
But I’ll still wonder why it’s never left me
And why you did
Questions unanswered that were born and then abandoned but never forgotten
I know what it was to be sick for you and waiting
In forlorn reflections of black mirrors
Across state lines
In empty hallways, unperceived
You’d touch my hips left then right
I’m a live wire.
Once more, a secret only I know
A pistol with her silencer
How good it’s always felt to be remembered by you.