I have a twinge of pain in my chest then that pain spreads all across my body. I try not to look into the mirror. But as a woman my features seem sharper and my curves are all I can see. I gaze at myself in the mirror and see my coffee brown eyes then I look down to my lips still light pink. I love myself but I feel uneasy. My anxiety is cranked up to 100 and all I want to do is tell someone that I am a gender fluid, bisexual woman.