You wanted to separate Your sickness from your genius. Donate to each of your brain hemispheres the resposibility to deal with your differente delusions. You wanted to be a little bit more morbid than genious or vice versa. Never is such equal amounts. You wanted fame, whatever it was the side of the coin. You wanted to defended the colors of Manson. You wanted to defended the colors of Sagan. But You are stucked in a spiral where you aspire to breath the air that only the freedom, of being something without conscience to self judge or being something the world wont even dare to judge, can give. But You are not so morbid... or so genius. You're just like everyone else. In equal amounts.