Trembling, always with this **** trembling
Quivering, not only my hands as I grip my weapon
Which is very low on ammunition-wasted too many good shots
No
But my heart quivers
Almost as quickly as my mind races
Where are the friendlies
I can't find my side
The enemy is everywhere
All sides consuming
Surely they must be around her somewhere
Here, near, far, this way, that way
Anywhere, anybody
Nobody
And ****, this trembling
This racing of thoughts
As eratic as my movements
No time, no space
No error
Plenty of everything else
A bullet flies
An insult spat
Missing me by only a hair
A breathe, a quiver
My quivering
****** stop shaking
You'll live, I make no promises
Promise, promises
This person once said
But what did they say, what did they say
He said...irrelevant things
I never cared for anything he said anyway
And she didn't help much either
They never did
But did they ever?
Explosions, explosions
Jump, dodge weave
Bleed, scream, die
They aren't falling
I wish I could fall
Over there, in the distance
Friendly fire
No, yes, of course never
Why do I even bother
Keep standing
Run, compliance is futile
And for goodness sake, stop trembling!