You know when you go and you ride a roller coaster for the first time?
You're not completely sure you want to go
You're scared
So you bring someone with you and you enjoy it
You enjoy sharing that experience of pain and joy and absolute terror
But this roller coaster is the one
That is only goes upside down
Then it has a flip
That came out of nowhere
And suddenly
You're right side up
And you question it
Its been going the other way for so long
Your perception is altered to be so different
And you hit a stop
And the next time you scream you're actually right side up
Seeing things for how they actually are
Smiles are frowns
Frowns are smiles
And you're lost
So you look around on your roller coaster of fate and you see someone
And they’re glorified
They’re the angel that got you off your never ending roller coaster
And you get attached a bit too much
You expect things that aren't there
Then they leave
****.
Gone.
And once again
You're back on that roller coaster
Alone
And you don't know what to do
So you repeat that cycle
Over
And over
And over and over
And I want to find someone to share it with me
Or I don't want to be on it anymore