I can feel those words
They are rising on my tongue
Like waves ready to crash against the shore.
I clamp my jaw shut,
Keep my tongue prisoner behind
A cage of teeth.

It's too soon to release them,
Too soon to feel them,
And yet they protest and scream themselves
Everytime i leave you,
Everytime I see you.

They are the constant reminder
of how fragile I am,
And how breakable this is.
It seems to me that you are always waiting
by the door,
Ready to leave at any moment.
And I will still be standing here,
Long after the door closes
Alone amongst the echoes of the words never spoken.

You keep me constantly at arms length,
You raise your guard at the speed of a blink,
I don't doubt you care for me,
I only wish i knew how much.
I don't doubt you will leave me,
I only wish I knew when.
So I can prepare.

You listened to my heart beating
And said it was so much quicker than yours.
Maybe so,
But your feet are far quicker than mine.