I guess I haven't been waiting
Because to do so means you have something to wait for
It's ironic
The one place I abstain from is exactly where I've been this whole time
Fantasy
Because you never told me to wait for you
You never said you were mine when I told you I was yours
Never did you proclaim our being together
So why should I have expected you to be faithful?
When I wasn't a partner all along

I'm just living up to my name
Dreaming in this wonderland-like matrix
Thinking my saving myself for you meant anything
Believing you we're doing the same
I fantasized an image of you that whispered hopes for the future
Who promised his heart would open
And let me in
To love me