i said no before but you kept asking
i was scared of you
tall and stronger
unpredictable and manic
i said no but you wouldn’t leave
pinned down by blankets and body weight
i thought this was normal
we were friends beforehand
i said no but i said yes in the end
do you do this with other people?
are they scared of you too?
i can’t leave my bed
i can’t feel my body
the sight of myself revolts me
i said no but you thought it was fine
i’m scared to tell our friends
you have two different personas
i know they would believe you
one half lives on anger and hatred
but the other half wishes the best
i hope you find a comfortable place to grow
i hope you feel comfortable in hell