It is without a doubt
that this pill
has been placed
on my tongue
and begun to melt.
I cannot get myself
to swallow,
however.
I'd rather choke
on it's pasty residue
and after matter.
I will not
be held responsible
for something
I did not accept.
I will do everything
to fight
the after effects.
But,
what if resisting
will make it worse?
What if the pill
hits my body
and begins to hurt?
You see
I blocked it out
as long as I could.
But sooner
or later
it has to absorb.
And then
it will hit me
like a ton of bricks.
I should have
accepted
so I was ready
to cope with this.