It will never be the same I will never be the same I can’t forget but I wouldn’t be disappointed if you did I still remember how it felt The way you pushed me to bed And forced yourself into me I screamed but you quickly covered my mouth Pushing yourself harder and rougher Into me No amount of alcohol Can make me forget how it felt Nor can it numb the pain I said no but that somehow encouraged you Even more I ******* hated how it felt I ******* hated myself But you weren’t the last no not yet
The other one I thought he was my friend I got drunk and I thought I was safe Till he sat on my legs paralyzing me And trying to touch me I didn’t know what to do I was so drunk to even take it serious Who would have thought a friend Would harm another so easily I blacked out and when I opened my eyes I found his face between my legs The way he was touching me I still blame myself for not screaming Nor running And I still blame myself for thinking he was My friend
Alcohol became my best friend As well as men touching me without my consent No matter what I wore No matter where I was It’s like everyone knew I have daddy issues It was like an invitation for them It’s like I was so desperately craving For any man’s touch My father treated me worse, why would I Expect them to be any different?