i became very
quiet, and almost sad. i wrote a lot
in my mind, but never on paper, and thought a lot
about not much at all, now that i think about it.

to think is to understand. or a stepping stone to it.

i remembered recently that i need to write.
i needs words like i need air, i need to
understand what it is i'm feeling because if i don't,
i don't think i'm feeling anything at all.

to feel is to understand. or a stepping stone to it.

i've written four poems about how i don't understand.
three sonnets about feelings i'm trying to understand.
two haikus of wondering what i understand.
one sentence of understanding that i'll never understand.

i'm older now. i've grown. i've thought and felt,
but i haven't written.

to write is to understand- the stepping stone to it.