Sometimes on nights like these, I find reasons to hurt, Because I think it terrifies me less if there is a reason. If I know a cause for the effect, I can cope, I can strategize. But to be honest, nothing hurt me today, not more than any other, And yet I feel raw And alien And fragile. There is only so much I can ask people to take care of me. I don't refuse to out of pride- Well, sometimes I do, but- I refuse to on the principal that the people who can stand to feel a need like mine Yawning beneath their fingertips like a drop-off cliff Do not deserve to have to stand it always. I can weather my nights alone, And I know it. It's not pretty, but it works, And I have an obligation, capable as I am, To make it work- At the very least, sometimes.