Looking back on the past year
I see so much pain
and so much healing.
I see so much resilance and strength
and so much cruelty
from so horrific men
that I met
when I craved love like a drug
and used the sx as an addiction.
I wish I could share my stories
but they are too graphic even for my mind
all I know is there are so many reasons
why I hate so many men
it hasn't come because I have wanted
Today  all I wanted to   do is cut off my *******
because it feels so hard
to live in this curvy body
a reminder of my pain
every single day
the feeling of objectifiation
from  men
but than craving it
a vicious cycle .

I wish for world peace for
equality in humanity.
But for now I focus on healing myself
because I don't know if i can do much else.