its was looming
a thing in my mind
a reality that was an actuality to the reasoning behind so many things i've always doubted
the baseline of all the problems i've encountered
the things i could never figure out but along the way i saw signs
a light there and a movement here
a way of telling me that everything was happening for a reason
but im stubborn
and not to good with cliches
knowing the fact between my decision making and how i could fix anything gave me the impression that i was in control of my life
in control of me well being
in constant dis pare of what i was doing
was always hard to understand how i could control how i think
but always so hard to figure out why i am always so sad
not like im asking for the sadness to sweep through my body
don't want to think the worst and always have the worst intentions in mind
a memory
a flash
of something ive never known
had me going back and considering the things ive always once wanted
going back to the beginning of how i managed to come across my possibilities at one point
and how i got so far away from what i really wanted in the beginning