Everyone might not get it,
Too many times I rather give up or quit
There’s no one else to commit
No one else to admit

Being bullied many times, sometimes
Feeling like a pantomime
I ain’t a shifted paradigm
Feels like my life is a movie in a primetime

I’m an outcast to the world
Felt like I belong more in the netherworld
Seems like their minds are gnarled
Every time I say I hated the world

Unwanted to the family I never belong in
My worth felt like a trash bin
I prefer not to lose but to win
Even when I get drunk, the solution to everything is not a tonic gin

I see life in ropes and knives
Are they even horrified with their own lives?
When they chose to summon a welcome- hope kicks in and revives,
I see myself sinking instead of choosing to thrive

I see death in this situation I’m in right now
When I send help to thee, then come thou
Said he, “you reap what you sow”
Grab me my arrow and bow

I’m not myself when I see flashing strobe lights
When it’s half past midnight
I know I don’t wanna fight
Even if I’m not right

It got me stiff, jerking, lying on the floor
Once it got me knocking in someone else’s door
Waiting for my turn to get sober
It rots the hell out of my core

I feel delighted in medicines and hospital beds
I wish I could just forget everything what’s inside my head
I wish I was lovable enough to be heard
Unknowingly dumbfounded me, unaware of what lies ahead