I believed you when you said that you would love me forever. I nodded benignly through my tears when you said you never wanted to hurt me like this again, and that's why you did it then. I wanted to kiss you when you reached for my hand and told me this was only because you wanted to be there for me. I tried to forgive you, so we could be friends like you wanted because until then I was amazed by the way you knew and understood me, you were my safety blanket when I hadn't felt safe before and because of this I was blind to the ropes you tied to me like I was a broken marionette.
Now I can't believe you saw my scars and didn't kiss them, let alone allow me to tell you their story. I can't believe you ****** my friend two weeks after you took knives to the places in my heart you knew would hurt me most. But mostly, I can't believe you expected me to crawl back into your arms after all this.
I want to throw at you all the notebooks I've wasted writing about you. I want to scream at you for treating my heart like either (I can't decide which is more true) a playtoy or something that you could save, neither of which were right.
I realize you're worth none of this. You're not the girl I fell in love with, you're not the girl I trusted with all of me, and I don't miss you I miss that girl.
I tried to hard to forgive you, but you don't deserve that.