There are so many things I wish I could say
So many words left unknown.
But whenever you get close I push you away.
To you I am just skin and bones.

I wish I could talk.
Wish I could let go of these insecurities.
Be rid of this fear.
But I can’t. But I won’t

Please know that it’s nothing against you.
You are innocent in all of this.
It’s me. I’m scared.
Scared to hurt you. To let you hurt me.

I know in my mind the fear is unreasonable.
But my heart, it just won’t listen.
I am no scientist.
Never have I been one for rationalities.

Instead, I stick to art.
To raw instinct.
Maybe it will just take a little time.
Or maybe it will take a little more.

But even so,
There are so many things I wish I could say.
So many words left unknown.