I don’t wanna leave my books
And my thoughts forgotten
Somewhere among the dust
When the destiny steps up
And acts nasty
I’m like a cranky child
Who doesn’t know what she wants
But just craving for attention
Of her loving parent
If destiny my mother
Where’s her care?
If destiny my father
Where’s his protection?
If destiny my guardian angel
Where’s his guidance?
I’m lost as never
I’m blank as never
My heart is empty
But only my mind is full of thoughts
And I can never figure out
Which one is right
Or which one is wrong
If I’ve achieved something
Its my complete indecisiveness
The field where I succeed
Never was popular in school
Not really popular when I grew older
Too avant-garde for ordinary
Too simple for the marginals
Always somewhere in the middle
The middle path suits me right
At least it felt always right
But how I want to know exactly
Without guesses
Without mistakes
Oh this seeking of perfection
Where’s it gonna take me
When too afraid to make a step
In any direction really
Anyway something is about to happen
And whatever it is
I’m gonna jump
Into these deep waters
Of new experiences
And have it all
Or nothing at all