I’ve stared into the endlessness of a blank page
As I watched and heard my words stumble over one other in rage
I’ve truly never felt the way I feel in this moment before
Falling from a high that was never satisfying masking love galore
Each thought stacked on another
Consuming me as if my eyes could no longer see you as a lover
And now love makes me feel insane
As it ties itself in knots inside my brain
And pieces of my heart still beat on the ground
Pleading they could never hate you they just don’t know how to feel now
I now no longer know if you felt the same because of your lack of care
I constantly have thoughts on if I was just a game or if you truly needed me there running off course
sleeping less and being taken by my thoughts more
why would you say all those things for
If you wouldn't feel them anymore
I never felt this alone
You never even called or text my phone
When I needed you..
Not even to check on me .. you just don't care and I cant play the fool
If you knew you couldn't afford to love
Then why would you