we hang out at bars

and drink and
laugh and
cry and
fight

the conversations I have with myself

to make sure I'm able

to do these things with you guys

I set aside the red inside

because if I bare my sleeve

what will that do

but inconvenience the simplicity of it all

so I talk it through

and pretend it's you I'm talking to

catharsis is a feeling I am familiar with

even if it is a feeling I feel on my own

if I told you that I feel

then it would all get too real

we congregate to escape

I get that

but then when I am alone

it feels like a trap

and I can't escape that