we hang out at bars
and drink and
laugh and
cry and
fight
the conversations I have with myself
to make sure I'm able
to do these things with you guys
I set aside the red inside
because if I bare my sleeve
what will that do
but inconvenience the simplicity of it all
so I talk it through
and pretend it's you I'm talking to
catharsis is a feeling I am familiar with
even if it is a feeling I feel on my own
if I told you that I feel
then it would all get too real
we congregate to escape
I get that
but then when I am alone
it feels like a trap
and I can't escape that