I think its a longing
to be safe
like I am swimming in the ocean,
and I feel safe and calm
the way I feel with animals
I think that's the way I want to feel with myself
for we always chase what we long to feel within
and its never ending
maybe its the longing to feel at home with my face with my body
the other day I actually looked in the mirror and felt content with myself
and my percieved flaws ,
I felt so happy with who I am
and who I am becoming
maybe its learning to be our own cheerleader
that when our inner child is crying out in pain
and is gasping for life
we can tell her
baby we love you
it will all be okay .
and we learn how to stand up for ourselves
once and for all
I always wanted to be saved by others
now I am learning how to save myself
and how to be my own savior.