we love you and we are happy to have you
but we wanted to stop at two
we agreed to stop at two
and then this bad thing happened
that really ruined things
and we decided to have another one
because we want a clean slate and
this third child will make things better
and we can start afresh and it will all be okay

and then you don’t take into account
the 7 and 11 year age difference and
the two of them hated me then for existing
and for being spoilt (like I could control it)

and for having what they didn’t have
and having to be my babysitter
and taking away their childhood

and I was never in your plan but it’s all okay
because now the narrative changes
and I’m to be the redemption child
but having another child doesn’t
save your marriage and
it doesn’t create a clean slate and

no matter how well you phrase it
I was just never meant to exist

but then I did anyway
so that you two could feel better
about that one mistake that ****** everything up