i cuffed
my hands
& accepted
my fate to a
self-made
rain rusted
ball & chain

i look up
as pollution saturated
droplets fall
& decorate
my face

no longer
able to
differentiate
tears from
rain

this hole
i dug,
this grave
i dug
i squint to find
the skylight

the same
s
p
i
r
a
l
swirling
reeling
falling
sloping
looming
gloomin­g
d
o
w
n
down, down . . .

tossed the key
and broke
the ladder
to pieces
like you once
did to my
love-swollen
heart.

nails
caked with
mud from
trying to
climb & claw
my way back up

it's dark down here,
it's familiar here...

it's dark down here,
it's comfortable here...

escape plans
lurk & await
my attention...
but you
is all i'll
plot
from down here.