Ariella
Ariella
Ariella
I hear myself calling  out my own name
wandering
who it is
that I am
who is this beautiful person
behind those beautiful
deep intense eyes
I wander back
I am not sure I know
for my whole life
has tested me
pushed me so very hard
I never got a chance to discover this
who am I ?


I think I am discovering who I am
slowly
the more I heal from trauma
I see the bits and pieces
form together
the more I sit with my inner child
and teach her what true unconditonal love is
the more I learn how to be my own mother
to hold myself as I cry
to tell myself that I will always be okay
that our tears are valid
that when she shows me the horrors
that we lived through
that I forgot so long ago
that I forgive her
that I love her
that I feel the anger about my oppressors
that I allow myself to be human
and not just a painting to be looked at
jeered at mocked at
or wanted,

for I am human
and I am a being
and I am a little girl
a women
a person who has a huge heart
a person who sees the stray cats and wants to take them all home
who's soul is poetry who loves art
who loves men ,women the ocean the nature
the words from my soul
that want to be written all day
a person who wants to give the goodness to the world
but has learnt that most people aren't worthy of it.
I think I am amazing
its taken a long way
but you can get there
so when I hear my name
I know I am worthy
even if many others
don't think so
or see so ..
or don't understand the deep soul
that I am
for I am an old soul
and its okay
if they can't see
because I see .