My tolerance for bullsht
became so thin
bec ive dealt with it
my whole life
do you actually think
that I would take you
back
after you laughed at me
spit at me
when I was down
mocked my insecurities
and belittled me ??!!
just because we are flesh and blood
it doesn't mean you get another chance with me
or that I buy your lies or bullsht
anymore
so you text me saying you love me
love is proven
true love
is kindness
empathy
compassion
caring about the other human being
it means more than just basic decency
I can't believe
how much I was brainwashed
to beg for decency
when I am sure
there are people
that exist
that would surely give that to me
and even more than that
just because they care,
but I will not depend on what
others will do or won't do anymore,
  I must give it to myself
and noone especially not my brother
will take away my standards from me
ever again.